Saturday, January 27, 2007,11:10 AM
hiyahz... friday , means what ? its sat tml , gee... im starting not to enjoy this anymore ,whats behind that smile of mine ? behind my smile is my sadness and sorrow that im trying so hard to control.... im becoming annoying i noe , u can hate me u can despise me or anything its up to , its the same even if i dont or have friends , right now i noe , im just a fren who could just be thrown away and be picken up again ....concern is something .... but on second thoughts , sharing my feelings is kinda bad thing , people get annoyed...trying to fit in was useless i noe , now i just shut up and do as im told , every single thing im saying now , i noe people will start getting annoyed by reading my post so, this is where i stop ,with nothing left and a long way ahead , no nothing ...slowly ,friends will leave 1 by 1 just becasue im annoying but i understand. Sorry's no use anymore i guess, u all think ill do it again , no 1 trusts or believe me anymore huh...its ok .. i just put up a fake smile =D and then walk away or sumthing but , i just wanna have friends that care and that i can talk to , im glad i have some of those people now =D like Celine,addie,debbie,oe,rachel << im quite sure , i dont noe about nick nor izzy ... not sure anymore T.T wished u understand
Oe right nw , i beg u to help me , i kneel down before god , i want to ask for forgiveness , is it possible , i hope it is .......
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