Thursday, January 18, 2007,5:08 PM
i feel like im gonna die , so weak....soo so weak ... i can barely stand up ...aww shit....
this sux, i feel dead.ahh todae another boring day of school, im sad...soo sad... gahh i hate this freaking feeling im having , but if i was gonna die now ... i dunno nothing much would change .... cant w8 for tml . PE then sure play soccer...feelings all mixed up ! im feel so horrible .. i guess this is what i get for being a naughty boy ? ahhh im burning up ...i feel so weak i might just faint ...god... help me ... i plead for mercy T.T gahhh....i cant stand it anymore !! hiding my feelings for too long isnt gonna help at all !! ARGHHHHHARGHARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im going crazie !!
I wish someone understood me.
listening to the song Beatiful , its so nice , i <3 that song... sigh gotta goo... goodbye for now i might post tonite if i can even move an inch ....* drops dead *
im back now.. soo boring, im dying im crying , out of all the things i have to do i have to be sad ? dammit !!! sooner or later everyones gonna get annoyed or MAYBE they are already annoyed , how the hell am i supossed to noe huh ? i wann to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Now listening to we believe
ill type out the lyrics
Theres a woman crying out tonight
her world has changed
she asked out why
her only son has died and now her daughter cried
she cant sleep at night
this parts kinda meaningful but the chorus..
We believe?i cant really believe anymore , im too afraid to believe, i have lost my confidence ,all hope is lost this blog is dead wish god could help me out.
Life has became so meaningless for me ... i get ignored , i get scoldings and i get punished .
i noe i deserve this but its becoming a little too much for me to take it
so this world is too much for me to take just let it down and follow you ?
Theres nothing im good at but getting into lots and lots of trouble , now so little people talk to me , is it becasue of who i am ? or what i am or what im doin now ? if u could explain that to me ... im always so lonely when i go online to MSN , no 1 has ever started anything since like 4 days ago ? always i start and then some people dun reply =(
i wish for happy days T.T
The sad music im listening to now makes me feel horrible , i think about what ive done over and over again but it never stops, if my heart beat stopped now it would be good wouldnt it ? no more me , no more of my nonsense , no more of my emotions no more of everything and anything ive got ... no more ahum.. forever .. some people shud be happy... im gone i cant annoy them anymore can i ? i rather feel regret then pain its about the same thing
I cant live in this shit anymore
im becoming such a bore
People dont understand me
i wish i was free
a carefree life would be great
is this feeling hate ?
i guess im idioitic
and im not poetic
so this poem kind of sucks
i dont noe why im doing this " shucks! "
there u go my lousy poem i came up with ...i dont think i could do any better then that... then now i go and draw and even my drawing sux... so oh well , cannot rebother to do anything else... byebye .. if ur annoyed by my stupidity ... im soo so soo so sorry , just gotta w8 for youth byeee
