Monday, January 22, 2007,5:07 PM
ARGH!!!!!!!!! i wanna change the past !!!!!!! if i had never gone to that evangel church camp NOTHING would have happened!!!!!!! I WOULD BE MISERABLE MYSELF AND NOT WITH OTHERS ARGH!!!!!!!! DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!no 1 believes my part of the story , i dont mind , ill just leave .... and then u all can just forget me , i was never there , never meant to be , i dont noe y god sent me there , for what purpose , why must this happen ? for what purpose slowly everyone's not gonna care about me , soo i shud just backslide and dunno do what the hell ,its no use anymore i cant hide my feelings anymore its too much to take it i dunno why ARGHARGH
, lets trying cutting wrists like other people do , they get better dont they ? huh huh huh ? tell me what the hell i shud do , take the blame ? i dun mind but , WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPOSE TO DO NOW ?GIVE ME A DAM FREAKING BREAK WILL U!!!!!GAHHHHH , SELFCONTROL HUH ..U THINK I CAN CONTROL ANYMORE IF U THINK SO COME AND SEE MY I EXPLAIN MY SHIT TO U , U THINK U CAN CONTROL ???/